This is long and alot of my opinion and believe. You may continue to read but with far warning.
*names have been changed*
The Marriage ammendment prop 102.
"Only a union of one man and one women shall be valid or recognized as a marriage in this state."
For some reason I keep thinking of this ammendment. I am not sure how I feel about it. Do I believe that marriage should take place between only one man and one woman? Good question. I don't know. Do I believe that marriage is only natural between one man and one woman? Yes.
I am priveleged to have one really awesome homosexual man friend and one really awesome homosexual female relation. Right now I will refer to my gay man friend as Fred and my gay girl relation as Donna.
Donna has been with her partner now for about 5 years. They own to houses together and Donna has 2 children from her previous marriage. They love eachother dearly and I have never seen Donna happier or more successful then she is now. I think it has a lot to do with her partner and what they are to eachother. I love her partner dearly as well. I believe they will be together for a long time if not thier whole lives. They will be together whether I like it or not and I will love them both whether I think it natural or not. This proposition means that they do not have the same rights that me and my husband have even though they have the same relationship me and my husband have. In my opinion that violates the equal rights ammendmant. Now, my friend Fred also plans on finding the man of his dreams and living happily ever after just like I did and he will never have the same benefits I have if this prop passes.
I am a practicing mormon. I believe in the gospel and my religion very much. I like to think of myself as an unsheltered mormon. Unlike Jill, I have experienced many things. Some pleasant some not so pleasant. I also hope, that I have learned some things and have a greater understanding of things because of other people in my life who have had there own experiences such as Donna and Joe. Having experienced everything that I have experienced, I believe that life is too short to suffer when suffering is unnecessary. Whether it be emotional suffering and pain or physical suffering and pain. I don't think god's plan was to have any one of his children suffer by choice.
Like in Donna's case. For her to choose to not be with her partner would cause her personal suffering and I don't believe that god would have her choose something that would cause her that much pain. I believe my gods plan is a plan of happiness, true happiness, not false happiness.
I think Joe is a case of false happiness. I don't think in the life he has chosen he has ever really experienced true happiness and I think that makes my heavenly father very very sad.
One thing I don't believe that is sometimes taught is that one can choose ones feeling. I have never believed this.We always have some kind of choice but we do not always get to choose the choices. Let me say that again, I believe that in every situation we always have a choice, however, we are not always privledged enough to choose the choices. Let me explain, When I was living with dad and I walked in on something no daughter should ever witness of her father twice in one day in places that I thought were safe, my choices were, 1)ignore it and pretend it never happend, 2)acknowledg it happend and that it deeply hurt me and never discuss it with my father or 3)acknowledge that it happend and deeply hurt and discuss this with my father. None of these choices are pleasant but I did have a choice. The same is with feelings I believe. We have feelings that are usually spurred by something. I do not and never have believed that you can choose that feeling I only blieve that you can choose how you react to that feeling. I believe we are on this earth to make those choices to the best of our ability without causing anyone else our ourselves pain. Some like Jill that in making those choices we should only consider others and not oursleves. Such as in the case of gay people. It doesn't matter how much pain they are experiencing it just shouldn't be done because of how other people feel. I do not believe this for one second. Why in the world would our heavenly father who sacrificed his own son for our salvation and happiness ever wish that kind of pain on any one of his children? I don't believe he would. I think this is what we will be judged on in the after life. How well we choose how to be. I believe only my heavenly father knows someones heart. I believe he will judge me on how well I chose to live my life for the benefit of myself and those that I love without causing intentional pain to others. I believe he will judge everyone of his children that way. Even those who have commited suicide. They commited suicide because of how much pain they were in or because they weren't right in the head. By commiting suicide some suffer. People on the earth who loved him or her suffer but he did not intentionally cause them pain. I think my heavenly father will take all that into consideration. Everyone has there own way of finding peace and happiness with themselves on this earth. However they get there is their decision. I try not to judge them on this because I do not know there heart I only know my own. I don't wish pain or suffering on anyone because I have experienced some serious pain and suffering.
I'm not sure I can vote yes on this prop. In my opinion it will cause too much pain and take away some equality. Anyways, I thought I'd get my feelings out there. If I offended anyone, remember, I gave you far warning.